How come it happens to me?

I have this tingaling inside me. urging to u no, do it whenever i see boys. i have been the quiet one and the joked about one at school for too long. when i moved i vowed to change all of that and open myself to the world. i need help. i am lost in the modern world. sometimes i wish that i could be raped so my parents couldn't blame me and i would have been through the urge. Please, i need help. What's wrong with me?!